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| Everything changes and nothing ever stays the same that has been my main lesson this year and I still stick to it, its a motto, a guidance, and it puts me with my two feet on the ground. I havent updated for quiet a long time, but you have all these other blogs that become the new hype, myspace, facebook... its all there. What has changed?"Well for one : Im not with my boyfriend in belgium anymore. I broke up with him in October I believe, after three and a half years. Nomatter how old someone can be, age doesnt state maturity, he showed me that because the way he handled everything was not mature at all. In our last conversation that was very recent, he threw away everything we ever had by acting immature, insane, and all of this through words. Words are powerful, and the power of words cannot be underestimated, the power of words is never constant either, it changes from person to person, from political use to social use, the power of words is crazy! Coming from his lips, they were simply pathetic, while I know they were ment to be extremely powerful, but they werent, they were simply pathetic, and they were. I'm going out with another guy now and I love him a lot, nomatter what people think about him, he makes me happy and others will probably agree upon us when they see me smile, at least that is what I hope. Love is a dangerous thing , yet so lovely in all its essence. You can run and hide from love, but eventually, it will always catch up on you nomatter how hard you try to avoid it. Its better not to see love as constant either. You might think you are in love... and then in your next relationship, everything is so much better, you are so much more IN LOVE... love is inconsistent too. There might just not be too many consistencies in life as we think, but sometimes its better to believe that there are... Farewell I was blind to see The imperfections The blemishes Your breathe brought me The expectations Were too high Since you brought them down Through your lies I was hurt to hear What really happened The illusion I lived The mortification of my soul You have become so cold Froze what I thought Would rather melt And pain it brought At least it’s over Your death has come along In my mind and my sorrow Since you proved me wrong You won’t reach The goals you aspire If you prolong your stay In the devil’s womb of fire Farewell now I’ve had it I now have more Than you ever did | | |
| Hey My life has changed a lot since last year, or even the year before, i’m actually happy.
I now know who to trust and who not to trust, who is TRULY my friend and who is not, I now believe in making my own luck. There are too many fucked up people in this world, they want to be someone else around everyone and pretend that they don’t, they can lie right to your face, they don’t feel like a normal human being, they don’t give a shit about whatever effort anyone makes to do something for them, useless. But at least I don’t want to know any fucked up people anymore, I know that they are fucked up before I even commit myself to them, I know right from wrong. Nobody can now do shit to me anymore, you can try but it wont work, its a waste of breath and effort. I love my FRIENDS more than anything in the world, they are the ones that make life in India bearable for me, so this is an ode to my FRIENDS: I love you peepz!!! I wouldnt know what to do with out you!!! I think everyone should know who I'm talking to, and what I'm talking about in this entire entry, thats when you know you are my friend. So I'm done with fuckers who don’t give a shit about anything that's around them, I'm done with letting anyone hurt me over and over again, I'm done with smiling when I want to cry, I’m done with feeling with when I know that I can be strong, I’M DONE!!!
Just so you know it.... Friday night I was supposed to go to modern but that didn’t work out because we all had obligations to attend. So there I was, bored at home. But then somehow I can go to Sohvi's house! OMG!!! I had so much fun! Betina came too, and so sohvi, iita, Betina and I started watching " She's the man” for like the third time together ( I watched it alone twice too ). Its sooo funny!!! A lot of people hate the actrice and therefore think it’s a crappy movie, but It rocks, we had so much to laugh about, so many inside jokes etc, so much real fun. We partied like crazy people, drank Japanese soup and coffee and other stuff… SOHVI UR AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU!!! LOL. We went to bed at like, 5.30 and woke up at 8 to stay in bed for another 2 hours. Then in the morning of Saturday I was supposed to go to my guitar lessons,but that didn’t really work out due to transport issues, then I went to Nihar’s house for lunch at 12, it was fun. We had a lot of laughs, and an annoying discussion about the same topic, but at least everyone expressed themselves. I hope people will do that too when they are outside, and not only when they are in.
We were with a bunch of people: Zee ( Mwah!!!) , Pia, Eline, Clara, Fati’ma, Beza, Nihar, Biva, Daewoo and I. It was fun. Then after that, Eline and I left to my house, we stayed there until my parents were back and done, then we went to the Embassy for a BBQ but it was boring for us so Eline and I left after five minutes and went to her Hotel. We wanted to go swimming but they didn’t let us, well, me , because i’m not an actual hotel GUEST. Then they wanted to give me 50 percent discount but euh, NOPE!!! There’s no way id pay that much money for 30 minutes in the pool, but when we came back down with Eline’s mom on the phone, they were talking differently fast!!! Hahaha it was so funny!!! Her mom totally rocked right their, the guy was scared!!! So we swom, then we went to the food store at the gas station, bought food, went back to her room, ate soup, haha, drunk it out of glass, and watched cheaters. Was fun, love u Eline, Ur ma Belgian bitch!!! XxX Other than that, I don’t really have much to say, I hope my message came out clearly because that’s exactly the way it is, and the way it will be. Here are some pix of lately… and this weekend. 
Do I know you?  Sleeping Beauty  Morning…. Yuk !  I know you want to see the look in my eyes… 
Wan and Kaly Picture time :P:P:P LOL 
A beach Romance  Three words : I love you  High on Belgian Chocolate 
Me and My Princessss 
Look as if your emo and dance around like a child… | | |
| Hey everyone!!!
This is just a short entry, i`m hoping everyone is enjoying their summer!!!
I wont be updating my xanga this summer so please go to http://kalyani.skyblog.com and leave me some comments!!! Thanks for that!!!
Big hugs and hags
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| Hey
Havent written an entry in seems like, ages!!!
Things havent been going so good lately, it seemed like everything just fell apart, all at once and it hurts. Its like this endless current which keeps sucking you down deeper and deeper after everytime you seem to have gotten out of it, until you drown. A few things happened, misunderstandings, tears, a broken heart and extreme grief. I lost my grandmother, she passed away the 3rd of may which was an incredible hard time for me, and it still is. I loved her so much and I miss her like crazy! I dont know what to do without her, can't believe she's really gone, it seems so impossible to me. Why? She was so vivid and everything, close to my heart, and now, she left us. And then all of the other things that have been going so completely wrong, it hurts. Oh well, I'm trying my best to keep swimming, just keep swimming, until it will be ok again.
The good thing is that Word Wallah has finally been completed, after all the work, Laddi and Mr Church got to actually finish it off today, which really rocks!!! Other than that, I had my guitar concert, Soundwaves 2006! It was soooo awsome! I had a lot of fun! Felt good haha. Here u have some supreme freshlisoush cool pix of moi in concert. Last Resort by Papa Roach. Voisi, les photo, enjoy!
Thanks for all the people who have been supporting me, i really appreciate it!!! ( Cc, that night out was a lot of fun! Love ya!!! Mwah XxX)
Kiss
Kaly
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This is for you Grandma, wherever you are, I love you
"Slipped Away" |
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I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Nah nah la la la nah nah
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you
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